Nowhere Fast

The job fell through...in a manner of speaking.
I am also aquiring a habit of attaining crushes on men ridiculously younger than me who couldn't be less interested.
Don't know where the money will come from now...wow...am i lost...i can honestly say that i have never ever been this totally messed up in all areas of my life.

Heard this song tonight...by the same band that gave me my summer theme song Drive. Read the lyrics and bitterly laughed out loud...i leave you with it...

Will I ever get to where it is that I am going?
Will I ever follow through with what I, what I had planned?
I guess it's possible that I have been a bit distracted
and the directions for me are a lot less in demand.
Will I ever get to where I'm going?
If I do, will I know when I'm there?
If the wind blew me in the right direction (yea) would I even care?
I would.
I take a look around; it's evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can't seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I'm going nowhere...
really fucking fast
Will I ever get to where I'm going?
If I do, will I know when I'm there?
If the wind blew me in the right direction (yea) would I even care?
I would. I would. I would.