D is for Donut

D is also for Divorce.

Surreal for me to get the news that my friends Martine and Cory, who were married 2 weeks after Jennie and Eric, are suddenly split up. Everyone's marriage is ending or faltering and my negativity toward marriage is building and building. Which i don't want. I want primary relationships to work. I want to believe that i will, someday, have a partnership that works. I must start knocking down my negative wall and spend my time creating this belief system.

So for Jennie and any and all of my friends going through a place of ending/beginning, death/birth that things like divorce bring...i give you a new song by Shaye www.shayemusic.com ...Jennie said she heard it on the radio and felt like it was me saying these things to her:

"So you've come to this bridge
In an unfamiliar land
You know it's a bridge you are going to walk on
And the only thing you know is
Everything you know
Will do you no good from here on

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places
And I will be thinking of you out there

So pick up your bags
Look around at your friends
And you know none of them
Would ever have enough strength
To cross the bridge and lose control
I never felt this bold
Never felt this good

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places

And I will be thinking of you
Stay true to your nomad skies
Keep your eyes out for coyote
A thousand secrets are lost
In the archival dust

So lay your ears upon the tracks
One day you will come back
With wrinkled hands and grey hair
And there you will stand on the spot
And you'll marvel how the place is still the same
Though you are somebody else now
Fly on butterfly

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places
And I will be thinking of you out there "


As for the Donut reference...see next entry...